If I could go back in time, the aim of my work is the work of things I cannot change. Mountains I cannot lift up and rivers far more powerful the flow I cannot see my brothers before me into the ocean. The feedback of Hendrix and far cries of music that help me move myself forward are driven like feet ahead of my step.
I’ve protested few times, In my heart I would like to think what I do behind the scenes has mad a difference.
the age of my parents gave me some calm and this song captures these waves. I have nothing behind me if I have no story. Auntie Judy talked about a Thunderbird being but the size of a Hawk.
If I am fortunate I will see that through. I cam into this world a screaming child needy and wild.
The hurt of your heart I cannot mend but in my way I want to reach back in the houses I travelled with all the aunties and grandmothers to heal that severed nerve. Before the world was with the animals, I see you my friend, a being, a light before there was time.
Few if any will understand the beautiful dissonance of song that we long for that falls on our ears. I am tragic and I am void, but I am not destroyed if you took the time to put words on a page and have the courage to rage it out.
This week I realized I lost 1/3 of my work last year. I shut it out until I read your words. I cried like this
but I regained myself from the help of the aunties and grandmothers.
This wold is whole, you are not void. Something will hold you up with the wave of who you are. When I was lost and felt I had nothing I found my energy in villains and motivation. There was a time we are that, written at convenience, lands stolen we once stood on.
Depth of my heart I resonate with hurt. I know because I know. The art I make now doesn’t sell like the marketable works but it’s true to my heart.
I want you to know, you are loved. Deeper than an ocean but the sand on you feet when you see the break of the clouds. You are an energy bigger than you know.
From the place you have been, I have been in those shoes. Let music move this with you forward. You are far from absent, you are a present and connected. In my heart you are seen, valued and loved.