in absence of my heroes. A thought passes that collapsing stars still leave embers of light. A recollection of a time that I met Chris Cornell as a teenager. That time is far behind me and now knowing I am doing keep. I know at this time a black dog that is cast out that is good. A guard of knight worthy of holm.
I could draw design in imitation of of mentors but it would be pale comparison to their vision. Days go that I can not pick myself up. Where I am half way if lucky to be, I was moved to tears to see a paddle on the wall of the gallery, Arthur Thompson, Thunderbird at my time of doubt.
Without Marvin, in absence of a mentor who could navigate waters of this journey. My self pity was taking me away from potential. One would imagine that I had some dream that happened over sleep. It is a place of romanticism like the idea I carve by thread of teach in my heritage. All I have I fought to be like a root reaching surface among me peers.
Umista was a word of my mentor Holm I found with great revealtion. When I was asked by someone why I am not of a house. I have no response beyond the knowing my grandmothers aunt told me, painted world will call you but don’t call it on you. If you go to somewhere you don’t believe something, it will only take you somewhere unknown. I am not inside but I protect the door.
what I hear what I know beloved to me. Songs that do not belong to me but the people that know themselves. My father, a decendant of Chief Whitebird of place I am just a shadow of his keep and steward. By old ways, I will have not connection but by keep I am a loyal royal black dog.
Whatever was taken from our time. I protect with all arms of days in me.
I make no joke, the bats come now at time like no other time. To see the raccoon in distance grass at my home now the reward of house where I can belong aside a Fern.
Many moons will pass time, and I will wear the work I need to as time sees fit.
reminder of my mate. if language was not important or valuable why was is so urgent to take it from us. Halth ci yuss, make the work good.
be careful of what you wish.